Just some random thoughts

I'm just writing today because I fealt that it was time that I started sharing myself with the world again. I really enjoy florida and the life that I have been afforded. It took a lot of sacrifice for everybody involved for me to have this little bit of freedom. Sadly I feel that my paradise adventure has been in vain. I know a lot of people who are feeling as though much of their time is being wasted. I know what I want to do once I leave this place. I know I want to teach, but I just feel like everything that I try is totally unproductive and that I'm not supposed to keep the course I'm on.
Now for the weird stuff.
I'm generally not a man that believes in fate, but I have been reading the Dark Tower series by Steven King and I realise that it's all fiction but it has got me thinking about what my goal is. Roland has his tower and every action is leading him closer to that goal even against amazing odds. I don't believe in Ka but I believe that God has something for me to do and that works much the same as Roland's Ka (like a wind). The thing that bothers me is that I don't know what I should be doing.
So there it is. take it or leave it.